The Dichotomy Of Motherhood
Motherhood is a trip.
It’s the best thing I’ve ever done, and also the hardest.
The most fulfilling, and the most draining.
The cause of my happiest moments, and my saddest. My highest highs, and my lowest lows.
It’s something so universal, and yet so lonely.
It’s wanting my body to be my own again, and yet knowing that the second we wean, I’ll miss breastfeeding so much.
The most painful dichotomy of motherhood is the beauty and heartbreak in every new milestone, and it feels like he’s hitting new milestones almost daily.
I’m constantly mourning the loss of my baby while celebrating each new amazing thing he can do.
You know what got me this week?
He’s finally big enough that I can lift him out of the bathtub and set him on the floor in front of me so he can just stand there while I dry him off.
Like, what?! Who is this big boy??
He’s at such a fun age right now. He’s fully mobile (though still wobbly), so he can explore anything he wants. It’s fascinating to see what catches his attention and how he interacts with the world around him.
I’m loving motherhood right now.
The early postpartum days were HARD and honestly, thinking about doing it again stresses me out. If you’re in the thick of it right now, know that it gets easier.
A lot of people say that the days are long, but the years are short.
I disagree. The days are flying by.
I wake up, blink, and suddenly it’s time to put my sweet man to bed again.
Especially as he’s gotten bigger and the weather has gotten nice again, the days pass very quickly. Too quickly.
I don’t want to stop him from growing up (okay, maybe a part of me does!), but I do wish I could pause time and just soak up these days for a little while longer.
I’m truly living my dream right now. These are the best days of my life.
It’s quite bittersweet to know that this is possibly the best my life will ever be. Yes, there will be so much to enjoy and be grateful for as my son and his future siblings grow (hello grandkids!), but knowing that nothing will compare to these days kind of sucks, am I right?
Motherhood is a trip, but it’s the best trip I’ll ever take. One I feel so blessed to be on.
